impact of abuse — Poetry — Refracting Hope

The voices who steal light

My inner voices are like hands squeezing light from my soul.

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Powerless for my own good

Sometimes even the best of intentions can be triggering.

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Fury

Fury is fear out of control.

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What haunts the night

My dangerous darkness.

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Beast

Remember that there is a hurt child inside me.

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What miracles look like

Miracles can turn the unloved into the loved.

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Dark haunted

Can light drive darkness out?

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My destroyed head

I’ve often wondered why my head just doesn’t seem to work properly.

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Traitors

They betrayed me and then I betrayed them.

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Silence

I was betrayed, but I am also a betrayer.

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Wasted

Not worth nothing.

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I hate her/him/it. I think. Maybe.

Wolf is the good in me. She is lovable, and I am not. I hate Wolf. Maybe.

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Being Wolf in a human world

Wolf needs no one, but it is hard to be Wolf

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Branded

My future is stained with my own blood

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My mind his book, my cage: Mind control

Mind control makes it easy for someone to abuse a child. This blog is just one example of how it is done and the impact.

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Psalm for a ham sandwich God (Abridged vs)

Where is God when the world seems to be a never ending hell?

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Hopeless case...A walk through mental health and trauma

Survivors of child abuse often end up with many psychiatric diagnoses, but how accurate are they? Are the symptoms simply responses to trauma?

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Who will I be when I grow up?

I do not want to be the person I was raised to be.

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Wolf poem

Sometimes when a child feels weak, they try to make themselves stronger. To survive. Meet Wolf.

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Bonsai

Abuse changes the way that a child sees him/herself, and lowers self esteem.

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