inner pain — Poetry — Refracting Hope

$Refracting Hope$

Poetry

These poems are a mix of dark and light, the serious and less so - which shows you see, that PTSD is not all of me! Trauma, grief, parodies of songs, frustration with study –

I write about pretty much anything.

You’ll find the poems about child abuse in the Trigger Warning section of the site.

Each blog post is licensed under the Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.

Posts tagged inner pain

The voices who steal light

The voices who steal light

My inner voices are like hands squeezing light from my soul.

Hope Gordon14 March 2021inner scream, impact of abuse, inner pain, childhood trauma, child abuse, PTSD, PTSD scream, abuse PTSD, hope gordon, post traumatic stress disorder

What haunts the night

What haunts the night

My dangerous darkness.

Hope Gordon9 July 2020abuse pain, inner pain, child abuse, childhood trauma, impact of abuse, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon

Beast

Beast

Remember that there is a hurt child inside me.

Hope Gordon8 July 2020child abuse, childhood trauma, impact of abuse, inner scream, inner pain, PTSD, PTSD scream, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, abuse PTSD

What miracles look like

What miracles look like

Miracles can turn the unloved into the loved.

Hope Gordon8 July 2020child abuse, childhood trauma, inner pain, impact of abuse, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, wolf, inner wolf

Dark haunted

Dark haunted

Can light drive darkness out?

Hope Gordon19 June 2020impact of abuse, inner pain, child abuse, childhood trauma, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon

Traitors

Traitors

They betrayed me and then I betrayed them.

Hope Gordon31 May 2020childhood trauma, child abuse, impact of abuse, abuse relationship, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, inner pain

Silence

Silence

I was betrayed, but I am also a betrayer.

Hope Gordon13 May 2020abuse conflicted, child abuse, childhood trauma, impact of abuse, inner pain, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, abuse relationship

Wasted

Wasted

Not worth nothing.

Hope Gordon10 May 2020impact of abuse, childhood trauma, child abuse, inner pain, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon

I hate her/him/it. I think. Maybe.

I hate her/him/it. I think. Maybe.

Wolf is the good in me. She is lovable, and I am not. I hate Wolf. Maybe.

Hope Gordon1 May 2020wolf, inner wolf, impact of abuse, childhood trauma, child abuse, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, inner pain

Being Wolf in a human world

Being Wolf in a human world

Wolf needs no one, but it is hard to be Wolf

Hope Gordon1 May 2020wolf, impact of abuse, inner pain, inner wolf, childhood trauma, child abuse, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, abuse PTSD

Branded

Branded

My future is stained with my own blood

Hope Gordon15 April 2020impact of abuse, inner pain, childhood trauma, child abuse, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder

Psalm for a ham sandwich God (Abridged vs)

Psalm for a ham sandwich God (Abridged vs)

Where is God when the world seems to be a never ending hell?

Hope Gordon18 March 2020child abuse, childhood trauma, child abuse faith, child abuse god, impact of abuse, inner pain, PTSD faith, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, god is here, god abandon

Wolf poem

Wolf poem

Sometimes when a child feels weak, they try to make themselves stronger. To survive. Meet Wolf.

Hope Gordon18 March 2020wolf, inner pain, inner wolf, impact of abuse, defence mechanism, child abuse coping, childhood trauma, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder, hope gordon, child abuse powerless

Bonsai

Bonsai

Abuse changes the way that a child sees him/herself, and lowers self esteem.

Hope Gordon18 March 2020impact of abuse, inner pain, childhood trauma, child abuse, hope gordon, PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder